For Business or Love Part 4

You guys know I had this challenge for a long time. Matador was able to shed some light onto this. Whenever I start writing a business plan, I go back to reading pickup material or rattling my brain over girls. Why? Life is so short. What is it all for in the end?

Matador, on day 1 of bootcamp:
“I was a loner. I didn’t think I needed anybody. I didn’t think I needed any friends. At the same time I had a very strong father, who was very disciplined and who I thought brought me up very well. I went to school, I studied computer science, I went to business school after that… and then I worked for some top tiered consulting firms that were internationally known. So I had a good career. I had my health, wealth fully intact by age 23. My first job was 30k a year and I built myself up. To be fair, I built up in the dot come boom so it was easier, but that’s where I started.

Over time, it got worse and worse, because I did focus on the relationship part of my life, and it started to suck to motivation out of me from even working harder, because what is it all for? Thoughts like that started creeping into my mind.

What did I do this for, dad? I’ve been cheated. Fuck you telling me to stay out of trouble of these years. I didn’t sign up for this! I was miserable. From 16-26 were the dark periods of my life. Not to get too personal, but I was a depressed person. 26, I started stumbling into this thing.

C&F worked a little, but it didn’t work …. I made millions of blunders, I did some stupid shit…

But man, I am going to make statements to you today and I can back it up 100 and fucking 10%. By understanding what I am about to teach you, which you will now get, you will get a night and day difference over these 3 days by believing that in the pure mastery of this WILL make you feel like you have superpowers. Do you guys believe that?

It is going to require CHANGES. It is going to require EVOLVING… I feel… AWARE. That is all I can promise you, a moment of awareness. (To go the rest of the way)

48 Laws of Power

Power is a measure of a persons ability to control the environment around them, including the behavior of other persons. The term authority is often used for power perceived as legitimate by the social structure. Power can be seen as evil or unjust; indeed all evil and injustice committed by man against man involve power. The exercise of power seems endemic to humans as social beings. – Wikipedia

Robert Greene refers to power as the “closest thing humans have to becoming Gods themselves”. While I have read his book 48 laws of power a long time ago, the lessons never ingrained in my mind, as I find myself through recent events in a position of no power, of other people having power over me. Only through extremely hard work and effort, as well as the power of those who befriended and helped me (did the right thing) did I narrowly escape an otherwise ugly event that could have resulted in me looking for another job, or worse yet, working for a boss who had power over me and despised me.

In light of these events, I went back to thoroughly study “power”, not for the purpose of controlling others – that was never my goal. Rather, to understand it, so that others cannot control me. In gaining a certain amount of reputation and power, I will be able to thwart those who attack me, as well as launch counter attacks when necessary. Right now, I can only hurriedly try to defend myself.

Fear of Change

I have become accustomed to the routine. This routine involves going to work for the past 1.5 years, same job, same company. This change has been very different than my past, which often involved moving from the east coast to the west, and the different changes that occur from freshman to senior year.

I fear change now, because I have grown used to living in this apartment. I have grown weary and scarred of change. I have become comfortable and somewhat semi-happy with life.

It is in this predicament that I find myself trapped, or somewhat unhappy. There are some things I am happy for:

Cool job
Cool apartment
Cool friends

But there are still many things I am unhappy, or just “content” about:
Location
Lack of quality girls
Lack of events
Boring roommates
Despite cool job, still trapped from 8-5 work week

How do we get out of this rut? That’s the question that’s bugging me, like a splinter in my mind.

Entourage: Season 5

It has been too long. Welcome back to Entourage, season 5. September 7th.