Transition in work, life

Alpha, what have you been doing the last 2 weeks?

Alpha: Well. I was basically in a tough situation at work with 2 of my female managers. The situation lasted for about a month as I worked very hard to transition out of the group into a new team. For me, this was a difficult road. I learned a lot along the way. Read 48 laws of power and highlighted specific chapters. Basically, I was in a position of no power, and I had to play the game by other people’s rules and still come up on top.

When I received the offer from a fast growing group within the company, my new manager suddenly became very nice to me. I have heard and witnessed a lot of things about her, but in the end, we ended on a good note and I wrote her a final thank you note on the last day. I won’t bad mouth her here. People who are a certain way with people that create enough negative energy will craft their own demise, in time. And my mama taught me better than that

One of the other reasons I took a week off, after receiving my offer was that I needed a mental reset. I have hit a ceiling with my career, my life goals, and in general my pick up skills. I needed to re-frame my thinking. Today I read “The Answer”, and John Assaraf talks about why so many people fail – because the conscious mind is weak. It is short term. Long term habits and behavior is changed by concentrating and feeding your unconscious mind, where it is active 100% of the time and connects with Infinite Intelligence. Interesting.

I made 5 collages of pictures, photo shoots and pictures from magazines of the things I wanted in life, and they are hanging up on my bedroom wall right now. A lot of Victoria Secret models As well as guy models/actors/leaders I look up to: Barrack Obama, Jeremy Piven, and my mom and dad!

I feel happy. I feel free. My carefree attitude has translated into an awesome vibe and everyone I interacted with today, I think felt happier. It is a cool feeling. So this is what people who do not have to work fulltime to maintain a lifestyle feel like. This is what movie stars and Vincent Chase feels when they are not working

For Business or Love Part 4

You guys know I had this challenge for a long time. Matador was able to shed some light onto this. Whenever I start writing a business plan, I go back to reading pickup material or rattling my brain over girls. Why? Life is so short. What is it all for in the end?

Matador, on day 1 of bootcamp:
“I was a loner. I didn’t think I needed anybody. I didn’t think I needed any friends. At the same time I had a very strong father, who was very disciplined and who I thought brought me up very well. I went to school, I studied computer science, I went to business school after that… and then I worked for some top tiered consulting firms that were internationally known. So I had a good career. I had my health, wealth fully intact by age 23. My first job was 30k a year and I built myself up. To be fair, I built up in the dot come boom so it was easier, but that’s where I started.

Over time, it got worse and worse, because I did focus on the relationship part of my life, and it started to suck to motivation out of me from even working harder, because what is it all for? Thoughts like that started creeping into my mind.

What did I do this for, dad? I’ve been cheated. Fuck you telling me to stay out of trouble of these years. I didn’t sign up for this! I was miserable. From 16-26 were the dark periods of my life. Not to get too personal, but I was a depressed person. 26, I started stumbling into this thing.

C&F worked a little, but it didn’t work …. I made millions of blunders, I did some stupid shit…

But man, I am going to make statements to you today and I can back it up 100 and fucking 10%. By understanding what I am about to teach you, which you will now get, you will get a night and day difference over these 3 days by believing that in the pure mastery of this WILL make you feel like you have superpowers. Do you guys believe that?

It is going to require CHANGES. It is going to require EVOLVING… I feel… AWARE. That is all I can promise you, a moment of awareness. (To go the rest of the way)

Fear of Change

I have become accustomed to the routine. This routine involves going to work for the past 1.5 years, same job, same company. This change has been very different than my past, which often involved moving from the east coast to the west, and the different changes that occur from freshman to senior year.

I fear change now, because I have grown used to living in this apartment. I have grown weary and scarred of change. I have become comfortable and somewhat semi-happy with life.

It is in this predicament that I find myself trapped, or somewhat unhappy. There are some things I am happy for:

Cool job
Cool apartment
Cool friends

But there are still many things I am unhappy, or just “content” about:
Location
Lack of quality girls
Lack of events
Boring roommates
Despite cool job, still trapped from 8-5 work week

How do we get out of this rut? That’s the question that’s bugging me, like a splinter in my mind.

Niccolo Machiavelli on Fortune and how to treat Her

This passage from “The Prince” was a “a-ha!” moment for me in my journey in life:

“To be brief, I say that since Fortune changes and men stand fixed in their old ways, they are prosperous so long as there is congruity between them, and the reverse when there is no. Of this, however, I am well persuaded, that it is better to be impetuous than cautious. For Fortune is a woman who to be kept under must be beaten and roughly handled; and we see that she suffers herself to be more readily mastered by those who so treat her than by those who are more timid in their approaches. And always, like a woman, she favors the young, because they are less scrupulous and fiercer, and command her with great audacity.”