In Sickness, In Health

I got the fever, bad in the past 2 weeks. The days off work as I was recovering, I thought about my life in more depth than I have in a while. At the end of the day, a important question came to mind: If I died tomorrow, would I have lived a good life? Who would really remember me? Mom called, ex girlfriends called. A handful of friends called, but I realized that I did not have any hot female friends. That is, aside from a few from college, I currently do not have any really beautiful HB female friends. (By really beautiful, think HB8+ (potential to be a model). A few lessons came to mind

1. David DeAngelo said in his teachings to make 5 HB8+ friends of girls who you would like to date, but befriend them. Having these girls in your life will teach you the things you need to know about the inner workings, thoughts and the lifestyles of these women. Moreover, they will constantly supply you with their group of HBs.

2. Badboy, when he visited us in SF said that having girls will not make you happy. I am starting to finally understand what he means. Having girlfriends… while you get regular sex, is not a “happy” feeling. In other words, I would rather have deep relationships with 5 GFs/ex GFs – have both a friend and sexual relationship with all of them, than date 10 girls who I have no connection with.

3. Mystery said that being a mPUA is a lifestyle. As such, you MUST be a guy who enjoys going out, and always have something going on. If you are not a club person, Masters/Doc has many GFs and specializes in harem management by throwing social parties and wine parties. I realized that while I enjoy going out, this enjoyment has been adapted in order to become better at pickup. I would rather have a nice night out at the movies or at a restaurant, and I realized this recently. A perfect day for me, is a day spent in relaxation and happiness. It could be a day at the amusement part – a day at a museum where I learned something. Going to a club, while drinking, dancing is nice, is not what I am after at the end of the tunnel. However, being able to hold my own in a club, learning how to peacock and initiative conversations, these are very important skills to master in one of the most dangerous hunting grounds – the dance/loud club.

As I recovered, I am putting picking up girls on hold to figure out what I really want in life. Only then can I truly have clarity around my thoughts about PU.

PMA (Positive Mental Attitude)

In reading Napoleon Hill’s “Think and Grow Rich”, I also came across another one of his works: “Success through a positive mental attitude”.

According to Wikipedia: “Positive mental attitude“, or PMA, is a psychological term which describes a mental phenomenon in which the central idea is that one can increase achievement through optimistic thought processes. PMA implies that one has a vision of good natured change in one’s mind; it employs a state of mind that continues to seek, find and execute ways to win, or find a desirable outcome, regardless of the circumstances. It rejects negativity, defeatism and hopelessness. Part of the process of achieving PMA employs motivating “self talk” and deliberate goal-directed thinking.”

Lately, I have been paying attention to my inner dialogue in my head and it is interesting to note how negative it can be: “Damn, it is early in the morning… man, why do I have to do this… great, another line at Google that I have to wait for”. Instead, I should be thinking, “it is good to be early and arrive in the office to get everything done… this is good practice for me… I am lucky – I get free food for lunch and dinner!”

Hill talked about consciously developing the character traits that people embodied. I thought about Style’s LAS VEGAS character traits, but I did not want my list to be just about pickup. I wanted it to reflect life in general, wealth, health and love. Because if order to eventually land a 10, you will need to have the overall lifestyle to back it up. Here is my character sheet, uploaded into Google Docs – you can’t edit it, but it is here for viewing pleasure. I will keep track with a “Y” when that character trait was evident in that day and “N“when it isn’t.

Think about your internal dialog to yourself, and see if you can consciously see what you are feeding your mind. Your thoughts will turn in to actions, and actions determine your destiny. So, think wisely. Think positively.

AlphaWolf’s Characteristics Development (Docs)

Characteristics

1. Positive Mental Attitude
2. Loyalty
3. Accurate Thinking
4. DO IT NOW!
5. Learning from defeat
6. Strong Body Language
7. Budgeting time and money
8. Volunteering to help others
9. Faith in cosmic force
10. Authenticity
11. Adaptability
12. Value
13. Charisma
14. Humility
15. Health and Body

(Special points for those who know where this picture originally came from)

Foundations

Foundations

A “foundation” is something that cannot be taken away from you very easily or quickly (within a few days). In history, great empires have fallen, seemingly “over night”. But usually, things with foundations see waves of change long before the event happens. The Berlin wall, the fall of the Roman Empire, Troy, all these momentous events saw waves of change and ripples in the water before the final fall actually happened.

A personal foundation are things in your life that:

1. Cannot be taken away by mere chance or little to medium effort by something else, such as an adversary.
2. Is there for you, even if you leave and come back, having a sickness, “fall out” or otherwise absence for a period of time.
3. Has potential to exist and continue to grow as its own entity without you

What are my pillars of foundations? A good foundation provides stability, but a poorly designed foundation could trap or constrain you. Therefore, build your foundations carefully.

An easy and recent example of a foundation can be found watching The Girls Next Door – every month, 3-4 girls visit the playboy mansion (19-26 years old) and test shoot for the playboy cover. Hugh Hefner goes out for a night at dinner with them, accompanied by his 3 girlfriends. Although Hef is noticeably old, he has built his empire, and Playboy Enterprises continues to grow and evolve around him.

Day 14 – Game Over!

After 3 weeks of continuous weekend sarging, I was basically throbbing with sexual energy. Despite my recent flu, I was too horny. Watching porn, I thought I could just satisfy the visual stimuli and my cravings. Wrong answer

So at Day 14 my trial ends. Pretty good run. Lessons I have learned:

1. Orgasms are better when you wait for them in anticipation.

2. Ejaculation is separate from orgasm – M. Chia and Douglas Abram were right. I was not able to recreate multiple orgasms without ejaculation, but I understand now that this is a possibility, having been aroused mentally in this period without actually ejaculating.

3. You generally have more energy when you don’t masturbate. When you ejaculate, it is inevitable that you lose some of your vital energy.

4. I am going to continue to trial, without masturbation. The only ejaculation allowed, as set by previous rules, was to sleep with a HB8+. If I make it past day 10, I’ll post a “trial 2″.

Cheers, thanks for reading!